You want to escape from bushfires, coronavirus, university restructures, tragic news stories, wild weather, power outages, uncertainty about the future, politics on social media, other people’s gloom…
Your strategies for working during tough times and staying hopeful seem shallow or forced. You feel increasingly fragile, combative, anxious, or worn out to the back teeth…
You compulsively check apps and websites for bushfires near you, air quality measures, power outages, water quantity in dams, virus infection levels, weather reports…
You look for healthy ways to cope. You try new recipes (Maggie’s Recipes for Life promise to stave off dementia), exercise, meditate, get a massage, laugh, focus on what you can control, increase your step count, vent, plan a day off…
You think longingly of running away, being quarantined comfortably at home, having a head transplant, falling asleep for one hundred years…
Your internal monologue has shifted from ‘You’ve got this’ or ‘Done is better than perfect’ to ‘Decentre yourself’ and then the extreme: ‘I am murderbot’ (after Martha Well’s cyborg character who has hacked its governance protocols and stopped working for the Company)…
You wake at night, or too early in the morning, caught in a loop of what you could or should say and do and be. You overthink the human condition, Western individualism, academia, or middle age. Your 2am escapist fiction has become Why we can’t sleep: Women’s new midlife crisis…
Why not choose your own version of the following:
- a book so immersive that the pages almost turn themselves: Home Fire, My Sister the Serial Killer, The Long Way to a Small Angry Planet, Flowers for Algernon
- music that transports you: Skinner’s The Cradle Song, the Run Lola Run soundtrack
- a strangely compulsive video game (even for non-players): Dear Esther
- a podcast that makes you laugh out loud: Ladies, we need to talk (Yumi, a mother of four in her 40s, tells her mother ‘It hurts when you call me a dingdong.’ Her mother replies, ‘Why? You are a dingdong.’)
- a movie or tv show that takes you into another world: the uncomfortable, angry and funny Fleabag
And when your street looks like this, and you are without power and road access:
You enjoy: playing games by candlelight; sandwiches for dinner; the camaraderie of neighbours; and the simple unspeaking company of a sleepy dog.
Recharge yourself ready for what comes next.
As always, beautifully put xSent from my Samsung Galaxy smartphone.
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